MY EVERYTHING

My sista, my BFF, my mentor, my heng bud, my chauffeur, my conscience, my reasoning partner, my fashion guru, my Hollywood connection. My life is on a standstill. Whatever am gonna do without you, only God knows. I keep thinking I'll awake and it's like Friday never happened. I miss you.

In retrospect, our goodbye process started early on this year. I just didn’t realize it till now.  Convincing me to move to be close to you and constantly telling me that I was Nate and Idah’s other mummy. You and I have been in each other’s business for so long, there are some people who believe we are twins. I remember looking up to you because you could do things that I would not dare try – I remember when cousin Mungai was teaching us to ride a bicycle and I got scratched by the chain and that was the end of that session for me. Not you, you fell, got up back on the bicycle and rode off. You would do somersaults effortlessly, do back flips and walk on your hands like you were on your feet. When we had to work in the shamba during school holidays, you would finish your allotted area way ahead of me and though you would complain, you would rescue me and finish my allotted area too. When we were much younger and I was the last born, I would pick on you and just be a nag and never once would you hit me back. You were so patient with me, always looking out for me. We went to Sunday School together, had our Confirmation classes together and you took me to Church when you decided we really needed to get know God. And lucky me I got to come to school in Nairobi earlier than everyone else because we had to be together. You took me to my first house party, to my first disco, brought me my first love note and you were the one who taught me the importance of family togetherness,  looked out for me when some guy was trying to be funny and fiercely stood up for me when anyone hurt me. You and I have being thick as thieves, we would always do the simplest of things together and yet be able to let the other be when they needed space. You have held my hand through some really tough points of my life, calmed me down when I lost my temper over one thing or the other and gave me such practical, common sense solutions!  When IdahReese choose to call me mom instead of auntie, you had no issues with that and after that allowed her to tag us as mummy 1 and mummy 2. You trusted me to love your babies as I trusted you with mine. Apparently now I am required to support Arsenal so that Kris and I can discuss football at a competitive level; Man U v Arsenal; how you guys teased each other!!! And we all know the way I ‘love’ football!! Lol!

When I started the CS Dept at work, you mentored me, became a fabulous resource, taught me the WOW factor and there were so many things we planned to do together with your promotion to Customer Service Manager. When I didn’t have a job and Kris was a baby, you took care of us, checking up on me incase I was in trouble and not letting you know. You remain an amazing, beautiful part of my life; I do not have the strength to say goodbye, I wanna say see you later.

I Love You Susanna!

BFF

Suzie,

Words are not enough to describe what I am going through right now and it hurts even to put this down on paper. I can’t even begin to express what your leaving us so soon has done to my very soul. It is almost like a physical pain. 

You really made such a big impact in my life from the moment I met you.  We have shared such great moments together – both joyous and  sad ones. 

We have had great discussions and made good decisions together regarding life, business and work.  We were BFF – best friends forever and now that you are gone, I just give thanks for the years that we have shared – I will surely miss you.

Fare thee well Suzie and I hope we shall meet again and pick off from where we left off.

Kinyash

BEAUTY INSIDE OUT

My Sweet Suzs,

Being your elder sister, I am privileged to be one of the very few people who first saw your famous sweet smile - you were such a beautiful baby – I remember how in shags people would stop to stare at how beautiful you were. But unlike most beautiful people, you had a beautiful heart too.  You had this amazing gift of turning any moment or place from being dull into a happy joyous one. You disliked sadness, worries, and anything that would cloud your day.

Oh Suzs! How I will miss you!  You were never really just a sister but a treasured friend.  I remember how you always said that your sisters were your best friends.  Yes, you made us all feel really special. And it’s true – each one of us had a unique and special relationship with you.  Anyone who knows our family will attest to how as sisters we are so tight and admired us for it. Can I forget the 411s?!!! – Oh! That was something else!  The Skype moments with you and Juds as we shared advices, jokes and teased one another. As for our outings ………. we always had an excuse to get together and celebrate something.  Our sista-sista kitchen moments in my house will never be the same again - we not only cooked up great meals but had a great time as well doing it.  Our family gatherings will miss your lovely presence. And Oh yes, you were such a great mum to Idah and Nate!

That Friday morning at Nairobi hospital was one of the worst I have ever had to go through – the pain, the anger, the questions, the self-blame…..  did God have to take you too, so soon after Chanjo?  You were so full of life, full of promise, great things were happening to you and you had just recently re-dedicated your life to Jesus. We were meant to celebrate your promotion that weekend.   But I know God loves all that is bright and beautiful – I know you make such a lovely addition to the beautiful angels up there.  Keep smiling down on your beautiful babies and on us from up there.  I know when I will look up whether on a bright night or a sunny day, I know that you will be up there smiling! 

I love you Suzs , I will miss you so, and you will always occupy a special place in my heart.  I truly treasure all the beautiful memories that we shared and thank God for giving you to us.  And now in Idah and Nate, you will live among us. Fare thee well, my lovely sister.


Margie

YOU STILL LIVE

My dearest Auntie Sue

Auntie, it’s very sad and painful, my eyes full of tears but I have to accept what has happened; God has a reason. I always cry whenever I think of your love and caring manners towards people. Sharing jokes and sweet stories full of laughter we used to have together .I thank God for the time He gave us here on earth to spend with you. Thank you for driving us safely to and from various places. Auntie Sue, I will miss you so much. Thank you so much for visiting my kahouse I remember you telling me ‘don’t worry my dear, we all started from the same place and now we are here’.

Good memories will always be with me especially the day you and I went out and had fun together, dancing and talking and laughing. It’s inconceivable that you are gone.

The better place that you are heading will always be a watch tower to your family and friends. When you reach that holy place please say hello to my Dad and Uncle Chanjo and tell them I miss them very much and I do love them greatly.

Although you are not here physically, you will still live because of Idah and Nate. GOD BLESS YOU SO MUCH. I LOVE YOU REST IN PEACE.                                                                 

Nduta